People have been telling me I'm naturally smart all my life (and sometime that I'm getting by on natural intellect) and I want to punch them. While it may be true that certain things are easy, for example, I have a natural ability to make connections, I have a crap memory for facts. I joke that I have use logic to arrive at the answers to questions that most people know by heart. Memory itself is so strange. If you tell me your favorite food (even in passing), I'll probably remember it a year from now. If you tell me your birthday, I won't remember it even tomorrow. Perhaps I remember things according to the emotional content they hold for me. People I find interesting have an emotional hold on me, whether they know it or not. Anyway, I hold the perhaps unpopular view that everyone is smart and everyone is stupid, if we can only figure out how.
That thrilling, frightening, satisfying and brief period where all my thoughts come together and are clear to me is gone and I'm left with emptiness again, back in the world of the humans.